Friday, February 19, 2016
Starting and Stopping
I would like to just sit down at the computer and have my fingers start flying over the keys, but it never seems to work that way. First it seems I have to go online and pochtsky around for a while, flipping through the headlines on AOL. You notice I don’t call them news headlines. The headlines are definitely tabloid quality meant to titillate not inform. The stories are mostly incomplete so now when I’m stalling starting on my work, I don’t even click on the headlines.
Then I check the Doppler radar if there is a hint of rain. Finally, I go to my manuscript. If the first line of writing comes easily, the rest follows, but usually the first line stalls. There is much deleting and dealing words that don’t sound right. Also much panic as I think about the deadline and how far I am from the end.
Somewhere something clicks in and I finally get in the flow. Time goes by unnoticed other than when I look up at the window near me, I see the light change, then dim, then get dark.
The time comes to stop because I have to do other things, like eat or pay some bills. There is always one more thing I think of or a change I want to make. The story is rolling in my head and I make a note of what should happen next to make starting easier.
I leave the computer, but I am still somewhere else. It is hard to jump into other tasks because my mind is still in the story. I find myself thinking about an upcoming scene and writing notes on any paper I can find. It’s kind of a dreamy feeling. Gradually the real world comes back into focus. And I’m there until it is time to start again.
Now that I am back at my desktop and I can upload photos I have included the one I was going to put in last week. Seeing myself bundled up, ready to go out in the cold seems odd now that I am back in Southern California where after one day of rain and temperatures in the 60s it is going to get warm again. I made the hat on a flight to Chicago last year. It was very cool to be able to put it on when we landed.